Hephzibah
Femininity Journal Club: a soft place to lay down the noise, remember you are His Delight, and come home to yourself, one page at a time.
What is the noise you find hardest to turn off? Identify the mental distractions — the worry, the planning, the replaying of old conversations — that keep you from the good stuff found in silence. What would it cost you to lay them down, even for an hour?
The audio above isn’t a reading of what’s below. It’s its own reflection. Here’s what I wrote when I actually sat down with this week’s prompt.
When I go silent, or try to… the most persistent noise in my head is a voice telling me I have too much to do. Not just immediate today things (laundry, cooking dinner, etc) but in life (people to contact, a business to run, a home I need to buy, debts to pay off, books to write, books to read)…
Sometimes the other voice is questioning I’m a fraud, that ill never be what I think I am, or what I hope to be. Admittedly I rarely sit in silence long enough for these thoughts to have any impact. But sometimes, as im trying to fall asleep at night, that’s what I’m thinking.
I’m not who I say I am, I’m a fraud, a bad mom, a whore, an imposter…
It’s like carrying a boulder, these thoughts burden me when I cook and clean. “I’ll never cook as good as so and so…my husband doesn’t really like this… I’m not cleaning right…”
Even when it comes to art and hobbies, my innervoice is so critical and mean. I always feel like I’m running out of time. That theres a million things to do, and I MUST be accomplishing at least one thing at any given moment. I know this is a slave mentality, as though Master is going to whip me at any sign of me slacking off. I know thats know who Yahuah is…
Resting is hard. Relaxing is hard. Simply being is hard, and it shouldn’t be. It’s not supposed to be this hard.
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I’m Asha, host of the Hephzibah Femininity Journaling Club.
I started Hephzibah for women like me
- Who lack a strong community of like-minded sisters
- Who want consistent Biblical inspiration on their femininity journey
- Who want to feel softer and think more like a lady, but didn’t know where to start
I believe Hephzibah helps with each of these because our foundation is Biblical. The name itself comes from a promise:
Thou shalt no more be termed Forsaken… but thou shalt be called Hephzibah… for the LORD delighteth in thee.
Isaiah 62:4 (KJV)Being His Delight means walking in promise, because He says becoming His Delight is a promise to us. And when you are walking in promise, everything about you is different.
But how do you know if your walk is different, if the only time you ever see yourself is by looking in the mirror?
For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass: for he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what manner of man he was.
James 1:23-24 (KJV)This is why I believe journaling matters so much. It helps us remember what Yahuah says about us. It gives us a place to continually reflect on our strengths and our weaknesses, and it holds us accountable in our vulnerability, even when that just means finally naming the mindset we need to outgrow.
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